The Day Yoko Cracked Up
By Anne Nightingale
Daily Express
April 25, 1986
In December 1980 came the shattering blow of John Lennon's death, and Julian Lennon, a comparatively anonymous schoolboy, was suddenly exposed to the public eye. Speculation raged about what would happen to the Lennon millions.
His firstborn son was summoned to New York by the grief-stricken Yoko Ono. He said, "My father's death was too much for Yoko. I had to be strong to cope with it myself, and I had to be strong to give her support for a while after it happened. She was cracking up all the time."
When he arrived at the Dakota Building, the eerie Gothic apartment block in New York where John had lived with Yoko, she had not yet told her son, Sean, that his father was dead. She sought Julian's advice on how to break the news to him. Yet, according to Julian's mother, Cynthia Lennon, it took Julian years to take in the reality of his father's death.
With Yoko in control of Lennon's estate, the world wondered how Julian would come out of it. John had, in fact, set up a comparatively small Trust Fund for Julian shortly after his divorce from Cynthia, but it had all but dwindled. Even a guitar, which had belonged to John and had been handed over to Julian by an anonymous messenger, became the center of an unpleasant controversy. Yoko became suspicious that the gift was linked to the theft of John's diaries.
"Soon after his death," Julian said, "Yoko found out about the guitar being given to me and sent someone over from New York so that I could sign for it. Then I was flown to New York to sign a confession, to say that I knew nothing about the diaries. Apparently, someone had told Yoko that my father's diaries had been given to me, which they weren't. Some have now been found, but not all of them, unfortunately."
Julian replayed this extraordinary piece of information as a matter of fact, as though he had been talking about a missing library book. But with his father's murder and mourned by millions, nothing was to be ordinary. Again, for 17-year-old Julian, the media had not given a jot for Lennon's firstborn son for years. His death changed all that overnight; at 17 and totally unprepared for it, Julian began to live the sort of goldfish bowl existence that once caused his father to remark, "All our mistakes have to be made in public," and so too were Julian's.
He, while still a vulnerable teenager, fell prey to the temptations of London's nightlife and the publicity that goes with it. He now deeply regrets it. "I feel I have a lot to live down," he says. "My playboy image seems to stick in people's minds. I almost feel that if I'm on TV in Britain, people have already made up their minds about me and will switch over to another channel. I think it's because of all the publicity I had before I'd done anything in terms of making records. I wasn't taken seriously because I was always seen hanging around nightclubs. Maybe people thought I was just messing around to get publicity and money," Julian added with disarmament modesty.
Julian is now based in New York. "I have just rented a brownstone house with a basement, kitchen, living room, two bedrooms, and a back garden, right in the middle of the city in New York. After what happened to his father there? Young Lennon replied, "I don't feel nervous about it, not at all." He hesitated. "Well, only in a certain few situations. Not so much going on stage but doing live radio shows where I have to walk through an audience; that's when one needs a bit of protection to get through the crowds. And of course, there are certain areas of New York to be avoided. I realized that anything could happen to me at any time, but I'm not going to sit around worrying about it. I'd just worry myself into the grave. I'd rather go out and have a good time. If something happens. Well," he shrugged, "That's it."
That's the way it is. Now, Julian sees Yoko often. "As the years have gone by, she's relaxed a bit, and I'm certainly relaxed with her now. All that pain and anguish has got cleaned out, and we can go be normal together again."
Julian talked about his own marriage prospects, which are no more at this time than a far-off possibility. "Each time I have a new relationship with a girl, I think, 'this is it,' and it never is. I have a girlfriend in New York that I really care about, but I travel so much that is more difficult to maintain a friendship. I don't want to be unfaithful, but sometimes it all becomes very difficult. I don't necessarily want to go to bed with other girls, but it's good just to hang out with different women, different characters. In my head, I like the idea of a girl who will be with me all the time, but it never works out. You get on each other's nerves being together all the time, and then there's the problem of working and not being able to give a girlfriend enough attention. So now it turns out that I prefer a girl who has independence, and if it means being a part of it well, absence makes the heart grow fonder."
For the moment, though, it is Julian's eminent London concert that is occupying his attention. His first performance in Britain is at the Royal Albert Hall next month.
In spite of playing a string of concerts to capacity crowds in America and Australia, Julian admits to being a bit apprehensive. "Britain will be tougher to crack than America," he said, "and "added bluntly, "they don't like me here. I'm sure it's because of the publicity I've had in the past. I almost don't want to play in Britain because of it. We'll see what happens, but it will be depressing if I fail here."
In general, America has taken to Julian, some believe, because of a collective guilt that his father should have been killed in their country for it's hard for Julian Lennon to be his own man. Many of his American fans are looking to him to be the sort of political activist that his father was. But his answer is, "No, I'm not going to get seriously into politics". He said, "I suppose the idea that I should is a legacy from the past." And that, like his name, is something he's learning to live with